Sunday, November 29, 2009

Thank you.

Hey guys!
Well, I've been trying very hard to hide my sadness for the past week, and my mom thinks it's for a stupid reason.
The reason that I'm sad is
I failed a class.
No, not a class.
Two classes.
I've always been told that once you enter high school, your grades start to drop. But, I never believed it. Not even when the smartest of my friends entered high school and had their grades start dropping. I never believed it would happen to me. You know why? Because I have always been a great student since I began school. I never failed, was never even close to failing and all of a sudden I get attacked with two failures. I felt like a failure. I didn't want to believe it. I cried. I thought about it. I got sick from it and etc. I told my mom, and she said, "Why are you gonna keep thinking about it? Just throw it back, look ahead, and live your life happily. There's nothing you can do about it now." I truly took a full minute to look at her. I thought, 'Is she seriously my mom?' She was the one who always gave ME the pressure to do well, be the best because she believes I can be the best. She would scream over an 85. But, now she's so calm, I thought she was just saying it to make me feel better. But, it turns out, she really meant those words. Which made me feel even WORSE inside. I couldn't drop the fact that I failed at all. I kept thinking about it, and I couldn't even think straight or even smile sincerely.

Today, I was looking through MetalAznWarrior's blog, TVB Musings. I read one of his entries from awhile ago, and he wrote about him failing a major exam as well. While I was reading it, I thought, 'I can't do anything about the failing grades, but I can do something to change the future. Like MetalAznWarrior says, "Once you hit the rock bottom, the only way to go is back up." And that's exactly what I'm aiming to do. I'm going to go back up to where I used to be. No. I'm gonna climb even higher.' He truly allowed me to see that everything in this world is NOT guaranteed. It's effort that brings us success. Thank you, MetalAznWarrior, reading his blog entries, not only inspired me to climb back up to the top, but to climb even higher than I was originally.

"Sometimes falling is necessary. After a fall, you hit rock bottom; it hurts and makes you wake up from your dream and realize....
...And then, the only way to go... is back up."
-MetalAznWarrior

Thank you so much. :)

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